Saturday, July 28, 2012

Baby Girl is leaving.

Baby Girl is leaving.

I have known about it for about a week and just haven't been able to bring myself to journal, I mean blog, about it yet.

Somehow writing it down makes it more real than it was without the words in front of me.  But, she is leaving.  She is going to be with her Mom and that makes me really happy.  But, as I said before, I will weep for myself.

She awoke something in me though that screams for permanence.  Just as our children crave consistency and permanence, so do I.  I have said goodbye to 5 longer-term kids since January.  This is where the rubber hits the road.  This is where fostering is hard.

This is where I need a vacation. I am going to get away to Michigan in a few weeks, but more about that later.

K, there, I said it.  She is leaving.  I will be sad.  I will be hopeful for her, for her Mom - that they will be healthy, happy and whole for their whole lives.  I will rest up and prepare for the next child - whether they stay for a day or for my whole life.